Have you ever contemplated suicide? Not planned it, not obsessed over it, but contemplated it? Do you often label yourself as “lost,” or “broken?” How “lonely” are you? Sunday mornings, do they become dreaded signposts, informing you that anxiety will…
Some finally reach the Guru at the top of the mountain. Drained, almost dying, only to hear, “Sorry, Guru Services are closed due to heavy snowfall. Or, merch is now available in all T-shirt sizes. Buy some. The Guru now…
What do you see when you look at the photograph? Chances are, you thought, “Wow, such a beautiful young woman. Some people just get it all.” And then you hear she passed away at the age of 21, after an…
Ferd’s Core Human Fracture of Ego vs Healing. Ferd’s steely blue eyes pierced the Teams filters with venom. He had been accused of not wanting a project to succeed, of merely earning his salary while sitting all day. I could…
Despondency is that shit feeling that resides in a post-apocalyptic crud-hole between hopelessness and apathy. As an emotion, it’s legit, and it’s a signal, but it’s a faint signal that can lead to horrible stuff if left unchecked. Rage, ironically,…
The language of conscription is glossed over with words like duty, service, honor, and sacrifice, but beneath the shine, it stinks of rotten bureaucracy, drafting people into the meat grinder. Politicians say, “the nation calls,” but never admit to coercion.…
Do you know people who wander into a restaurant, glance at the menu, comment on every item, and then leave, telling everyone outside what they saw? Worse, some post it online, and the echo chamber churns out dozens of hollow…
As a youth, my hair was routinely massacred by Adventure Barbers. A couple of middle-aged gents operated a lucrative gig on the outskirts of my community. No matter what style you requested, you always got short back and sides. School…
Carlson was in his early 60s when he passed away, surrounded by filth. I saw a few photographs of his lodgings shortly before he passed away. The general consensus was that this man just didn’t care anymore. He couldn’t care…
THE HUNGER FOR MEANING Scrolling while your soul starves. It’s important to me to remember that people also experienced existential crises in the 80s. One of my schoolmates committed suicide. He stared out of the window one day, just before…